tasty_kate: (Amy/11 Role Reversal)
tasty_kate ([personal profile] tasty_kate) wrote2011-09-17 04:59 pm
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The God Complex

I am crying.

It was exactly what I feared but it didn't make it less painful that it wasn't a surprise.

I'm actually crying more than any previous Doctor Who episode before. They're my Team!TARDIS. What the hell am I supposed to do now? I know it's the nature of this show and Amy and Rory aren't completely out of the picture, but... goddamn, I'm sad. All that feeling of dread in my chest... and then to have my suspicions confirmed. I haven't been in a situation like this in ages.

Aside from the those last few minutes, I thought it was a brilliant episode. I loved everything about it, the monster, the weird hotel, Rita, the guest star Mole, the Amy and Eleven moment which broke down their relationship so painfully well... Well, us Amy/11 shippers can't complain about the lack of shippy screen time, we certianly got it this time around. What kills me even more is that I can't be angry at Eleven. He's doing what was right. And gave them the right send-off. I'd rather be angry.

And goddamnit, I was right about those pap photos where my icon came from.

Lemme go lay on my bed and put on underwear music and remember the better times.

Where's the mood that says "heartbroken"?

[identity profile] tasty-kate.livejournal.com 2011-09-17 10:11 pm (UTC)(link)
ajdflkadjflkajdf NO. I'll read a lot of kinks but euuuggghhhh no.

[identity profile] tasty-kate.livejournal.com 2011-09-17 10:12 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah, I can't even have that conversation right now. My heart is on the mends. Forget I brought it up. >_

[identity profile] nostalgia-lj.livejournal.com 2011-09-17 10:13 pm (UTC)(link)
I was like "Maybe I should watch The War Games now" and then my heart was like "NO IT IS EVEN WORSE THAN THIS YOU WILL BE UPSETTED" and now idk what to doooo.

[identity profile] nostalgia-lj.livejournal.com 2011-09-17 10:14 pm (UTC)(link)
If the Master really had been the Doctor's brother, I don't think that would have stopped fandom.

[identity profile] tasty-kate.livejournal.com 2011-09-17 10:17 pm (UTC)(link)
HAHAHAHHA No, it probably wouldn't. As they say, the internet is for p0rn.

[identity profile] tasty-kate.livejournal.com 2011-09-17 10:18 pm (UTC)(link)
I think you made a step in the right direction with wearing the Four scarf. I'm just waiting for someone to upload the Confidential to see how the actors handled that scene.

[identity profile] nostalgia-lj.livejournal.com 2011-09-17 10:19 pm (UTC)(link)
Is this where I admit I'm scared to watch the one where Romana leaves?

[identity profile] tasty-kate.livejournal.com 2011-09-17 10:34 pm (UTC)(link)
*sticks fingers in ears* LALALA DOESN'T HAPPEN IF I DON'T WATCH IT LALALALALA

[identity profile] nostalgia-lj.livejournal.com 2011-09-17 10:36 pm (UTC)(link)
And then he jettisons her room so he never has to look into it and see it empty ;__; Whatever his excuses we all know that was the reason ;__;

[identity profile] tasty-kate.livejournal.com 2011-09-17 10:48 pm (UTC)(link)
HE LOVES HER FROM THE COCKLES OF HIS TIME LORDY HEART.

[identity profile] nostalgia-lj.livejournal.com 2011-09-17 10:49 pm (UTC)(link)
;_________;

[identity profile] ladymercury-10.livejournal.com 2011-09-17 11:11 pm (UTC)(link)
This episode was amazing. All the episodes this season should have been this good. But the end...brb, crying forever. I mean, it was sort of the best of all possible departures, but that didn't make it less heartbreaking. And poor Rory didn't even get to say goodbye!

[identity profile] tasty-kate.livejournal.com 2011-09-18 12:12 am (UTC)(link)
I keep telling myself that it was the best possible departure any companion could have asked for. It still doesn't make it hurt less. I did think it kind of sucked that Rory didn't get a chance to say goodbye. Even if Amy and the Doctor have a much stronger bond and a whole sort of different understanding between each other, Rory still should have had a chance to say goodbye. But, rumour (holy crap, I just spelt that with a "u" unintentionally) has it that we haven't seen the last of the Ponds. Maybe Rory can give the Doctor an ear full. :p

[identity profile] whovianmuse.livejournal.com 2011-09-18 12:39 am (UTC)(link)
I...all of this. I cannot emotions because Pond. I'm so torn, because I adore Amy/Rory/Eleven but I'm also intrigued in the idea of Eleven with someone else. How he reacts to someone new, how much he reflects about his past and the moments where he'll talk about Amy and won't admit how much he misses her and loves her. And if there's going to be someone new, it has to be River. She's the only other companion I'd ship him with, and the only other companion I could see the Eleventh version traveling with. And their departure was just so beautiful, and it was probably the happiest ending of all of new who. Because he let them go, he wanted to see them live. I love Eleven so much more than I ever did before. And damned if this didn't send my Amy/Eleven muse into full force.

[identity profile] tasty-kate.livejournal.com 2011-09-18 12:47 am (UTC)(link)
THIS, ALL OF THIS A THOUSAND TIMES. I cannot see Eleventy with someone besides River. But I know he won't talk to her about missing her mum 'cause, well, that's just weird, so in that sense it'd be neat to see someone new.

My love for Amy/11, I feel, has never been stronger. I feel SO MUCH ANGST that I'm tempted to write a fic. Perhaps angsty, perhaps happy to counter balance all this SAD I've been feeling. I have changed my default indefinitely from Eleventy sticking out his tongue in Vincent and the Doctor to this one until my heart heals-- WHENEVER (IFEVER) THAT MAY BE. I just made a new compound word. Like it?

[identity profile] whovianmuse.livejournal.com 2011-09-18 12:59 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah, it would be kind of weird, but at the same time, they can sort of develop a deeper connection over how much they miss her. River, obviously, because she's away from her mother, and the Doctor, because she was the first companion to see him and fully know him and understand him in his new regeneration, and because he truly loved her and wanted to see her safe and happy.

AGREED SO MUCH. I'm definitely picking up my Moulin Rouge/Doctor Who fic that I started months ago (seriously. fuck RL and work and ugh. I need to write fic so badly it hurts.) But. It still. I can't. My heart. It hurts. She has to come back. This can't be the definite end of them.

We are writers. We are entitled to make up our own fantastical new words and phrases. For example: spacey wacey technical terms :D

[identity profile] tasty-kate.livejournal.com 2011-09-18 02:45 am (UTC)(link)
I'm not sure if River as a full time companion could work from a practical stand point-- Alex Kingston lives in CA and doesn't want to move her daughter from her school (at least, that's the latest I heard). The only reason she's done the episodes so far is because they've filmed during her daughter's school breaks (or in the States). Of course, money does talk, so who knows...

MOULIN ROUGE/DOCTOR WHO FIC?!?!?!?! I MUST READ THIS. That is one of my all-time favorite movies. MY CRIES.

I'm still mourning this end of an era. I know she comes back; I'm pretty sure I heard something about Amy and Rory being there for the last episode and read that Karen Gillan was seen on set for the Christmas special. But we won't get the constant Ponds as we are so used to... My heart is heavy. I'm gonna be blue this whole week. =/

[identity profile] stick-poker.livejournal.com 2011-09-18 09:49 am (UTC)(link)
That's a comforting idea.

[identity profile] stick-poker.livejournal.com 2011-09-18 09:50 am (UTC)(link)
(loving this comment just as a comment, seriously)

[identity profile] stick-poker.livejournal.com 2011-09-18 09:56 am (UTC)(link)
They're my Team!TARDIS. What the hell am I supposed to do now?
This is what I'm rather worried about too. It's not like I haven't been involved and watching as previous Doctors and companions have come and gone, but I've never been *this* involved when it's happened before. Then again, I thought I'd wanted people not to leave before but if they hadn't we would never have had the Ponds at all, so I suppose the answer is to focus on the possibilities of who we might get next.

[identity profile] honeynoir.livejournal.com 2011-09-18 12:27 pm (UTC)(link)
*hands you tissues*

[identity profile] tasty-kate.livejournal.com 2011-09-18 01:39 pm (UTC)(link)
Where's the "like" button on here... :p

[identity profile] tasty-kate.livejournal.com 2011-09-18 01:42 pm (UTC)(link)
They're my first Team!TARDIS so I think that's what I'm going through right now. Sure, I went back and watch all of Nine and Ten's episodes and a few Classic!Who serials, but... damn. These guys were different. I was so emotionally invested in that trio. Ugh. I suppose it was the smart thing to do, leave while they were still popular.

You're absolutely right. If we didn't have AMAZING companions leave in the past, we wouldn't have got the Ponds. Think positive, think positive...

[identity profile] tasty-kate.livejournal.com 2011-09-18 01:42 pm (UTC)(link)
*blows a nasty-sounded blow*

Thanks. *watery smile*

[identity profile] honeynoir.livejournal.com 2011-09-18 04:26 pm (UTC)(link)
:)

As long as they're not dead, they can come back.

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